Where Do You Find Your Worth?

Yesterday was a super busy day.  I had plans to work out with Stephanie at 7am, and dinner for my birthday with friends at 6pm.  Everything in between is a blur of busy!

I dred working out.  Every Tuesday I get on the scale at Stephanie's gym and am usually disappointed by the number that shows up.  Today was no different.  In fact, it was one of the harder numbers to swallow.  I had only lost 1lb in 2 weeks.  And Id been working so hard to lose it.  Alas, my work out was full of self awareness and down right depression.  I actually cried a few times and as I looked in the mirror during squats, I crammed my head with words of discouragement and little self worth.

The scale was not my friend.

Then, the work out ended and Stephanie stopped and prayed for me.  Our workouts are fast and furious, but they are also filled with deep talk.  We share secrets and talk heartache.  We laugh, we cry, we even pass gas occaisionally.  (Dont deny it, squats do that to even the most delicate lady)! 
We talk about our kids and our spouses.  We give each other scripture and listen to christian music. 

Stephanie is my friend.

The day conitnued and before I knew it, it was off to dinner with two of my most beautiful friends for my birthday.  Age 34 came quickly.  The dinner started off slow, we were tired.  Both of my girlfriends have new borns babies and husbands that work late.  They also have a bouncing toddler running around syphoning all of their energy out of them!!!  But, we made time for each other and the time was magnificant! 

We sat for an hour after we had eaten, talking about our needs, our wants, our insecurities, our weight.......on and on.   It was refreshing.  It was raw.  It was one of the best nights I've had in a very long time.

I came home to my sweet daughter and little son.  Peyton was fast asleep in his crib and Ella watching tv with her MeeMaw. 

As I went to bed I realized that all morning I had put my worth in the scale.  I had determined my day by what the scale said.  As I laid my head down, I decided to find my worth in the things that had made me feel so amazing that day.  Stephanie, my girlfriends, my kiddos and my husband.  I thank God for giving me these people and for being enough for me.  He always is.  He always will be.

Where do you find your worth? Is it in the scale, society, selfies?

I woke up this morning and went running.  Hillsong was playing on my ipod, the song Forever Reign was on.  The lyrics were exactly what I needed to hear.

Oh, I'm running to Your arms,
I'm running to Your arms.
The riches of Your love
Will always be enough
Nothing compares to Your embrace
Light of the world forever reign

You are more, You are more
Than my words will ever say
You are Lord, You are Lord
All creation will proclaim
You are here, You are here
In Your presence I'm made whole
You are God, You are God
Of all else I'm letting go

(see song below)

 

Let go of what makes you feel worthless.  Hold onto His embrace.  Run to His arms.  Find yourself in Him being enough.  All else will fall into place.